I want to make this world a better place. I'm only one person and I am nothing exceptional. At least, I have this strong wish that people feel better when they are around me. I am a good person. My goals are good and my requests reasonable. You cannot do that if you do not feel good yourself.
Some people will find me tasteless. Unfortunately, they matter to me. All of them. Everybody have their weaknesses. Other people will be there to protect me, is not that beautiful?
I want to live my life fully. If I feel pain, if I feel desperate, if I feel lost, then I know I am alive. I do not want a life without pain, because you have to know pain to know happiness. You have to know fear to know courage. You have to feel desperate to feel overwhelmed.
I love life. Life brings you treasures. I don't want to protect myself, I need to know I am better than that. Everyday life is my biggest challenge, I never managed to face it by myself. Crisis is easy to handle.
I came here, this place is not for me. I feel I could loose myself here, my values, my real goals. I was lucky it did not happen. Here you forget who you are and become your goals. Your forget time goes by and to look around you. Here you fill-in your life with emptiness. I am not empty, I am me and my past. I am the people I loved and still love and the others as well. They are a part of me. I love you.
Mellie, december 2007
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