I believe

I am not afraid
I feel you are taking me higher
I feel you are by my side









I love the Christ. I have a sense of purpose thanks to my faith. Is it something wrong nowadays? To want to believe without any scientific proof?
I want to believe that my mum is with him, that she is happy up there. If I am wrong and nothing exists, who cares really? Can I be left with that belief in myself? I am really not sure that such a thing exists as a scientific person, but I still want to believe in it. I want to love the Lord and to feel protected by him. I am weak and therefore seek for his sheltering. I need it. He sent me an angel after all, or how else should I call the person who supports me and helps me all the way through? He sent me a lot of different angels, at different steps of my life. When I started not to believe in something, friendship, lasting love, family, I was given the exact proof that I was wrong. I am lucky. I am a lucky and happy.

Mellie, november 2008