
Kill my man, kill my woman, kill my children.
Kill the child that is unborn, unconcieved, unthought of.
Kill my friends, kill everyone and leave without turning back.
I can't handle this. I can't handle living in this world at times. My belly won't stop aching and I have no idea why, how can that be??
Stop that, stop the pain that never stops and make the stop final. I'm tired, I'm down, I'm lonely, I'm miserable. People envy me but there is nothing to envy. Achievements are nothing but temporary euphoria.
What remains is pain pain pain and fear. It sticks around, it sticks to me, it's nothingness but it's everything on the moment. This is too hard, this world is too fierce, how is it possible to live at all?
Mellie, july 2010
NB: image from http://nunasarah.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html